crappish.. at last after 2 weeks of waiting, i could now say bye bye to my stupid stitches and bandage... no more hard times when bathing where i'll have to hang my right up high in the air to prevent it from getting wet. In fact, i woke up 6.30am today and spent almost an hour enjoying my bath! ahhaha.. Try to imagine how good will your first "normal" bath be after facing so many hardship while bathing for the entire 2 weeks... It felt soooo good to me =) at last i feel clean... reached school at 8.30am and will be having class at 11.. so i jus pop into the library and relax while i crap something bout my life here since it's being so long since i blogged... quite bored now actually.. the assessments and assignments don't seem to stop coming.. =.= and the worst part is almost everybody around us are having their holiday but we hav none! With the heavy assignments as the topping cream, i guess this august is gonna be "fun".. i'll be walking dead soon~ hahaha.. Oh ya.. went back to Melaka last weekend and it was so enjoying~ 3 weeks i never went back already and my dear little puppy (sabrina) grown up sooo much~ i was so delighted to see her wagging her tail by the gate when i got home.. Oh ya.. did i mentioned anything about her? she was the first puppie that i've ever had since the first day she was born.. and the best part is she was born on my birthday! cool huh? that's y i loved her so so much.. During her first 3 months i almost gave up my daily life to take care of her. Feed her with a baby bottle every three hour... wipe her clean everyday... have her sleeping box clean all the time and make sure that she is healthy every moment.. hmm.. lucky i was on my after-SPM holiday that time so it was fine for me and my mom didn't complained much.. =) now looking at how fine she had grown into it made me felt so so proud and so happy.. guess thats how a parent will feel when they look at their grown up child hor? haha.. hmm.. shall stop here.. talking of my dog.. i may post her pics next time.. chaoz

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go
to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and
come back. But the rule is: you can go throught
them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The
student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw
one big padi,but he wonders....may be there is a
bigger one later.

Then he saw another bigger one... but may be
there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later,
when he finished more than half of the padi field,
he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the
previous one he saw, he know he has missed the
biggest one, and he regreted. So, he ended up
went back to the teacher with empty hand. The
teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking
for a better one, but when later you realise, you
have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The
teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go
to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and
come back. But the rule is: you can go throught
them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field, this time he is
careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he
reach the middle of the field, he has picked one
medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back
to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a
corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you
have faith and believe this is the best one you
get.... this is marriage."

i planned to blog bout the football fever party a week ago, i even had the scripts ready but i'm just to lazy and weak to do the finishing touch up.. :\ well.. i'll just post the pictures and let it do all the talking.. oh ya.. cut my hand badly 3 days ago and suffered the worst pain ever in my 18 years life. i foolishly karate-ed my condo's glass thinking that it wouldn't break.. to my suprise the glass just shattered and even to my shock my right wrist was badly cut by the broken pieces of glass... stupid stupid me.. ended up in the clinic the next day receiving 12 stitches and i can swear, it really felt like i'm in hell when the doctor tried to wash my wound! well.. i've learned my lesson and next time i'll never ever try to even knock gently on any glass. :D haix, i guess i'll just stop here. my hand is weak and i really can't type that fast and that much. will post the pictures of my injured wrist later. see ya~

well.. obviously i didn blog here yesterday~ i ended up at the party hahaha.. will blog more bout it later, library closing.. chaoz

ARGH!! next week will be our first assessments for all subjects.. it's onli the third week we are here and already the assessments and assignments are killing! phew! so long since i added some rubbish scripts to my space, sorry for those who waited and congrates to those who hated, you've got me back now~ :) next week will be our assessments already and me still in library blogging.. haha :D well, basicly i've gone through a very depressed week. For the first time since i was here, i felt that everything just goes wrong for me. It's not nice especially for a person like me who recently put high hopes on myself. I'll just start with last monday.. starting of the day i already felt wrong bout myself. Just dunno how that feeling came by but i just keep feeling that something isn't right. Then, it happened. At 1pm, me and my group member was suppose to attend house-keeping class with ms.LayBee (well, i really remembered it as 1pm) haix, all of us started waiting outside the hotel suite 1 since 12.50pm and by 1.30pm we were all sitting on the floor with some of my group members grumbling already. Me as the class rep went to the staff room trice but just can't find our lecturer. In the end, i had no choice but to ask my group members to dismiss and come back for class at 4pm. haix.. at first i thought that maybe the lecturer had just forgotten she had a class with us so i was planning to head to the library together with Ronald to study. But to my horror suprise, just as i was stepping into the lift, my fon rang! And to the answer was Ms.LayBee's voice asking where are all of us!! At that F-ing moment my brain was like chanting " F F F F~" for what has happened. It appears that Ms.LayBee informed me that the class will be at 2pm but i got it wrongly as 1pm. Haix, i ended up phone-calling all of my group members back to class! luckily that when we all gathered in class it was 2.08pm. So, we were not that LATE compared to the blunder that i've made. Althought Ms.LayBee didn't mind of the mistake that i've made but i personally felt so sorry for her and for every of my group member... I made them miss their lunch time and now they'll have to rush for the 4pm class witha pending power point presentation to do! Later on after Ms.LayBee class, we went staight for our business class where we'll have to present our power point presentation to the lecturer. And guess what? Disaster strikes again... That F-ing B!+c)-(! She was the one who gave us the wrong information last week for our presentation and we ended up being F-ed by her for all the mistakes! And HELLO~ if it was onli 1 silly group that did the wrong thing then maybe it could be our fault. BUT! It was the whole class that did the same mistake and it's obvious that it was that B!+c)-('s fault! Me again as the group leader again starts to feel bad when that bossy lecturer starts to say all kinds of things bout our class and so on... SHIT! that was the very moment that i was certain that the first day of this week is gonna end in a pathetic note. Again, at the end of the day, we were with new assignments and old assignments to finish. The rest of the days of this week was even worse.. i may write about it if i've time tonight. By now i've gotta leave library and head back to Ridzuan first. Have to change my uniform and come back to college to accompany my special one :) Tonight there will be a batch dinner summor but i guess i won't be attending.. i prefer study and blogging in library :) So, pray for the internet speed in library tonight and hopefully, i may blog :D

Wow, long time since i blog hoh... busy recently.. i meant by really BUSY that kind.. been a class representative really ain't easy.. lots and lots of things to be done, from photostating lecturer notes to finding the lecturers to follow up about classes. i'm like few times busier than other students... But, i'm still happy that i've been trusted with this job and i hope i could really do well in helping out the lecturers and my group members of course! Last Saturday we had a Hotel tour to Istana Hotel. It's was boring at first as we have to attend a small talk where it was quite boring.. zzz.. we spent around 30 minutes sitting there half dead and after thinking that the talk was going to end, there comes a member that was enthuastic that he just can't stop popping up with questions. All of us was going like "OH MY GOD! there he goes again!" as that guy was well known for popping up questions continously in class! In the end we manage to break his question-asking-streak by sending one of our friend to ask something stupid. And as what we predicted, the speaker ended the talk as he was also eager to get it all to an end, smart hor?! =) After that, we were brought around the hotel where in the first time of my life, i visited a presidental suite of a 5 star hotel! It's really so so big and luxurious inside that all of us was "WOW"ing all the way.. hehe.. we even joked bout renting it for a night stay and have fun but the idea just blew off when we know the price - RM7500/night. GOD! can u believe it?! i could work as part time for 1 whole year to get that much of money and it's onli worth 1 night stay at the presidential suite?! NAH! no thanks.. get rid of that idea anyway =) We were so lucky to be there that day as we even visited the room that was prepared for the Harlem Yu's press conference! Sooner that afternoon after the hotel visit, me, Patrick, Alex, Felicia, Hwee Wen, Amy and Natalia went shopping at Sungai Wang. Eventually... i wasn't the one shopping as i didn't even buy a single thing and Natalia was going crazy for skirts around. To her, even a pretty skirt with the price of RM140+ is cheap =/ sienz.. poor me and amy in the end just ending up following her around, help her line up to pay, giving opinion and of course act stupid =.= haiz.. it's going to reach 4pm, class is starting.. guess i'll blog later. byez.

hah, at last i got a chance to really get mediocre internet speed. So, after resting my fingers for some days, here i am again stressing my fingers typing some crap to feed some of you who oftenly read my blog or rather rubbish for some people. But nevermind, i told myselve no matter how some people reacted to my poor english i'll just keep continue blogging. i'm just me, nothing much nor less. K lah, move to main topic, it's been 1 week already since i've been at college and it's fun to know a lot of people around. Well, i was been appointed as group leader or representative for group 1 so it was fun that i get the chance to know every single group members and also other group members. i've been going along well with them and we even move in 'gangs' like how i usually had in secondary. Kinda busy with my post as i'll have to move my lazy ass to the staffs room to find our group mentor and also our business teacher to get some notes from her and distribute it to my group members. hmm... no idea what could i type summor, stop here lo.. will blog soon in future (if the internet speed is ok)

 

Oh ya, forget.. To : Peh Hua, Ronald, Kamal, Hwee Wen, Eli, Sumitra, Alex, Sin Jet and lovely Xing Yi. Thanks for making me feeling wonderful of having all of you in my group. See, i could remember all your names~ :)

hmm... the clock is showing 3.33pm now and i'll be having class by 4pm. At the library now but don't really feel like blogging because the internet speed is so slow. Will blog some other time when the internet speed is faster. byez.

After 2 days of boring talks and lame activities, at last we're being divided into 5 groups of 10pax based on our english assessment test. I was being settled in group 1 where we won't have to take english classes for term 1 and term 2. So basicly after going through my time table i felt that i'll have more time to either rest or play compared to other coursemates (pure luck!) hehe.. well, i was like those kinda talkative and restless person and within 5 minutes i manage to introduce myselve to everybody in my group and asked for their names, age and telephone numbers as well! (fast hor?!) Then we were shown our group mentor where his name was Mr.Francois. He's a french, tall guy, soft spoken and the best part is he is totally GORGEOUS! If i were to be a girl i will really go crazy for him. Few girls from my group just can't even stop smiling stupidly when they look at him. Hmm, guess not bad at all for having such a handsome and nice mentor although he is taking all the attention (haha, joking) Then it was the ice breaking session. At first i thought that they were going to come out with some lame games to waste our time. But as we were trying to finish the "lame tasks" that they gave i found out that these games really wasn't lame at all. It's planned specially for us so that we could realise how blind we are some times. Frankly i don't really enjoy the games but the message of the game is bold. I realise that sometimes when living in this community we don't usually get what we wants nor do we get to accomplish all the tasks is being given to us. We need friends, we need to work as a team, we need to observe and make desicions and sometimes we shall even cheat just because we have to. It's not that these games are teaching us how to cheat, it's just that sometimes in life, there will be situations where we'll have to cheat a little. Life is full of hardships and curves. Sometimes when we really had no choice, we'll have to go for the best selection.

 

Fuu.. ok la i'll just stop here.. type too much rubbish d... byez

Guys and gurls out there, world cup is over.. what do ya all think bout it? nice? syok? Haha.. Guess ya all sure have much to say.. Here is my conclusion for this season's world cup. I did it days ago but i just got to post it up now. Here are my conclusions:

 
1)Many were dissapointed
Many were disappointed with the grand finale. Brazil, England, Spain and Argentina. Four of these seed teams went out fragilely to an opponent that they could statisticly beat. Brazil was totally muted when they had their lost to France. The Brazillians seems to lose their magic suddenly and was sleep-walking for the whole 90 minutes. England was doomed to lose when Rooney pick up his controvercial red card but it was a shock and disgrace to see them lose out on penalties while they have so many so-called world top spot takers. Spain dominate the possesion in the match against France but lose due to unexperienced defending. Argentina could actually walk out of the tornament with their heads held high but in the very last seconds they decide to end their 2006 worldcup campaign with some streetfight style. pathetic!

2) Many were wrong
Suprise suprise suprise! Many were wrong with this season's world cup. Bah, i really mean MANY were wrong. Brazil, look to be the hottest candidate for champion ended up being humiliated by France and being booed all their way back to their home country by their own fans. France look like they were dead since the first match in group stage but just suddenly got second life and go all the way to the final and bow out to Italy in penalties. Talking bout Italy, they weren't even favorites to lift the cup with the scandal they had in Serie A but ended up as winners. How many were right? how many were wrong? Even me myselve also have to admit i was totally wrong throughout this whole worldcup. Nothing seems right don't they? (except for Italy fans,haha)

3) Many were shocked
Guess many were shocked during this worldcup campaign. Let's not mention about the score results that shocked us, we talk about incidents instead. Okay, lets move our attention to the referees. 16 yellow cards and 4 red cards in just 90 minutes?! If you tell this to somebody before the Portugal-Holland match then i guess you will sure get this reply :"dude, you need some medical help" Haha, what's insulting is that it really happened. The referee was on mood that day! He flings and flings his card all around like he's doing some sort of card gifting bonanza on the pitch! Hrm, maybe the card just doesn't makes him feel comfortable when it's in his pocket so he had to just swing it out repeatingly to adjust the position(ya, like it's real..) Bla Bla bla.. then there goes the 3 yellow card for a player incident. The referee must have left his brain at home or maybe that was his debut match as a referee. How could a professional referee make such an awful mistake? Blah, change topic. Zidane! The most celebrated football star in France got a red card by headbutting an Italian defender while the game was almost near penalties! How could this happen?! His nipple was pinched? He lost his mind? Materazzi said something nasty? No matter what excuse it was, it just doesn't make any sense. Do bear in mind that it is his last professional game! He was about to retire no matter what and he choose to end his brilliant career a couple of minutes earlier with "style"! My gosh, i was really shocked when i saw the replay of him headbutting the Italian. Although i like Zidane a lot, but i just can't persuade myselve to object the red card that he received. I was sad, and i guess whole France was sad for Zidane. (i like Zidane but i'm an England fan, sounds funny?! It could be..)

haix.. end of the story. This worldcup season is much more entertaining for the shocking effect than the pleasure of joga bonito. Hope this won't happen again in the South Africa 2010. Byez.

Actually today is already day 2 of orientation but i'll still like to talk bout yesterday's orientation. Yesterday was the first day of orientation and everyone was like totally new to the enviroment in college. Taylor's does look simple from the outside, but wait till you pass through the hall and you will totally pop a "wow" out off your mouth. It's more like a shopping complex inside. erm wait, maybe a hawker center? nah.. just don't know exactly how to describe the atmosphere. It's totally cool and you can see people walking around, some sitting while eating, some using their laptop to work with their asignment and college students hangging around waiting for class to start. It's like so relaxed to be around here and you don't even sense the tension of studies, perfect place for us to take our lunch, rest and wait for class to start. But when we entered the auditorium it was like total silence in the air. Everybody sat down to wait for our orientation to start and it's so quiet compared to the super-duper noisy atmosphere i experienced all along secondary life. The orientation start at 9am and all the lecturers goes BLA~bla~bluak all the way till it was 4pm! my goodness my ass was like cramping when the orientation was over. oh ya, forgot to say bout the english assessment test, IT'S DAMN TOUGH! especially the listening part where the stupid voice from the radio just speak so damn fast like she's riding on bullet train. i feel the creeps when i get the idea i'll fail my english paper because all the while my english sucks. Today's orientation was much better compared to yesterday's. We have rest time after every session and the lunch time was 2 hours! hehe, guess solves why am i so free to hang around the computer lab and type all these rubbish. gonna stop now, or else people will sue me for typing to much rubbish.. will blog more rubbish in future if i'm free :)

i'm at taylor's! haha.. sorry for sounding so excited but i am! Checked in to my hostel yesterday and slept straight away till today's 2pm.. haha.. this place that i'm staying was okay okay but the people here's cool! my roommate appears to be a sabahan chinese so i didn't have much problem in communicating with him.. My room is a simple space with two single beds, two wardrobe, two writing table and a pc (belongs to my roommate). Other than that, there's also a 18inch tv, a refrigerator, cooking stove, electric kettle, water heater and a washing machine in my unit. So basicly i'm very happy to be here and i'm really looking forward for my first class tomorrow.. kinda miss my frenz at melaka but i'll be back there this weekend so i'll make sure i find them to yam cha.. :) gotta stop here.. i'm hungry, gotta go for dinner! byez~

Hrm.. i'm still in melaka.. haha.. my mom manage to get her leave on tomorrow so i'll be 1 day more in Melaka. Nothing much happened today also because i slept till 4pm in the afternoon(world cup fever).. manage to do some shopping at Tesco, meet my bf and chit chat a little.. now.. i'm just sitting at home waiting for tomorrow to come.. hrm, not really waiting for tomorrow.. to be more particular, i'm actually waiting for '3am' to come! haha.. yaya.. the world cup final that i'll never hope to miss! hrm.. i personally hope france could win and i really admire the spirit they showed throughout the tornament. From zeroes in the group stages till heroes in the knockout stages, they showed much sporting spirit that i've not seen in this season's worldcup. And last but not least.. i felt that Christiano Ronaldo from Portugal really deserves something from FIFA. it's a pity that he was not the winner for the best amatuer award but it's more pityful that FIFA didn't gave him an award for the best actor on the pitch! Haha, yes i do really felt he's the best actor around since i start watching football.(shit, he's awfully good at it) He so good that he can dribble, run, jump and then fall like there's too much gravity! haix.. nice lad with nice skills but he got to get his acting skills away when he's playing.. it's a real disgrace to see a talented player like him to do those awful play acting on the pitch and i personally hope it won't occur again.. hmm.. i've crapped a lot didn't i? guess i have to stop here. so.. to all my frenz out there.. do enjoy the world cup final and remember to take care~

Today will be my last day in Melaka shaking my fat ass around doing nothing. tomorrow i'll be moving to KL and i'll sure miss my friends at Melaka a lot.. hrm.. feeling kinda nervous because i've never experience KL life before and i really hope i could adapt to the life over there. Today is kinda boring for me.. packing up my stuffs and feels like so empty in me.. leaving a place after staying for 18 years ain't really easy for me. sien.. i've been squeezing my brain for 30 minutes already but i still have no idea what i could still write.. ok lar.. i'll just stop here.. maybe after going out with my friends tonight i may pop up with some silly ideas..

i'm a very very very tired man now.. just got back from jusco and guess what? i was been there since 9am till now.. the time now? erm, it's 10.30pm. haha.. dun be impressed, me too didn't believe that i could really shop so long. For your information, it's Jusco day and the supermarket is having 70% discount off almost everything they sell. haha, as you know.. peoples nowadays.. they will really go mad for only a few cents and try imagine that now they can get some of their favorite foods, accessories and clothes for 30% of the original price! Gosh.. should i really explain the situation there? It was onli 9am when i reach there and it was already fully packed with customers. And not only these are not normal customers, they are pretty much greedy too! (i'm no better than them)They grab, snatch and even neck with each other for some limited items and everybody seems to be here to raid the whole supermarket down. Some even drove a lorry there! My goodness, then they'll start to grab as much as they can. Well, at least i was much smarter than them as i had already "identified" the stuffs that i want and just simply grab it without choosing slowly and squeezing my bum with other's. But as you know, human gets greedy sometimes.. erhem.. and i was that time! haha! In the end i ended up choosing more and more of things and i just can't stop! =.=" From foods, clothes, mp4, my college uniform,etc(i can't remember already)... haha.. that sums up my whole story for today. Shop, shop and shop. haha.. i'll post some pictures on my photo album later to show how crowded it was. k.. it's late now and i guess i'll just have to stop here. Nights~

Hope ya all know, tomorrow will be the annual "Jusco day". Me and my family were there a day earlier just to pick the things that we wanna buy so that we won't need to squeeze through the mad crowd to shop tomorrow.. it was a good experience for me as i seldom go out and shop with my family. I was happy to be there and everything just felt right. After finish choosing (or so called "identifying") what we each wanna buy tomorrow, we walk into McDonalds to have our dinner. I didn't ordered by myselve as my mom is taking that responsibility.. so.. as i was playing with my baby cousin, my food came... To my surprise, my mom ordered BigMac for me (the beef burger from McDonalds). huh? she still remember i love to eat this burger? omg.. but that was half a year ago since i last ate this burger. It was not that i felt that it tasted bad or i hate to eat it, it's just that i dun wanna hav those feelings again when i take a bite from that burger.. And because my family members don't take beef, so  i couldn't swap the burger with anyone and i had to eat it. "What's the f**ckin big deal?!" i tought for that moment as i took the burger near my mouth and had a big bite on it..Wosh! Time just suddenly seems to stop... some memories that i didn't wanted to face all these while just flash through my mind. i saw myselve at the McDonalds restaurant of kotamas where i was once a part-time worker there. She's just there.. sitting in front of me, looking at me enjoying my favorite BigMac as i always did after my tiring part time shift. She's just so beautiful, so pretty, so charming and always there to accompany me when i'm having my meal alone. All the while when i was down with my family relationship and facing harsh times with school life, she's just there for me. How on earth can a blind person like me didn't appreciate her and let her go.. i was a total idiot to myselve for not treasuring her since the beginning. An angel has been sent to me but my blinded eyes just can't see it nor feel it.. now.. everything is just not gonna be same again.. i can't be that selfish and i know i had to let go.. She'll have a better future without me. I'M SORRY, i'm sorry, I'M sorry!... ARGH..! i'm just so emotionally disturbed and i just can't complete this blog as it was meant to be. Sorry guys.. hope ya all forgive me for all the messy craps that i've posted.

 

Conclusion of the story : I lost a part of me when i lost her.. It hurts so deeply sometime that i don't wanna face myselve infront of the mirror every morning, i just can't face my tears... Love hurts when it doesn't turn out well and i don't think i could really recover from it. And for the lesson of the story : i think i'll avoid from having BigMac for some time.

my goodness... for 2 days in a row i've been sticking my ass in front of this stupid laptop and i juz can't figure out anything more interesting to do.. i wanted to go out but there's no transport and the worst part is i totally dun have the interest to watch tv programmes.. life suddenly is so so boring for me.. hrm.. guess i'll just hang around here and crap a few stuff lo.. hrm.. college life is starting soon and i'm moving up to KL this weekend.. all of a sudden i start to wonder whether will i be able to online that often over there (coz basicly i keep in touch with my frenz online) funny toughts starts to creep me while i continue to worry bout how i'm gonna adapt myselve with the KL ppl's lifestyle.. gee, my frenz hav been telling me i'm thinking too much.. but then, who wouldn't while it's my first time moving on to someplace else alone for a long period of time.. hrm... bla bla bla.. guess i'll juz cut the worrying crap here.. talk bout football then.. hrm.. Germany lost :( haix.. it was bad to see a team lose a game so late in extra time.. i don't mean that Italy don't deserve victory.. but it's just too cruel for the host nations to watch their team crash out after.. err... 118 minutes of hard hard work? Aiz, for me i truefully think that they've done themselves worthy enough to reach the semis and i guess german may juz walk away with their heads high.. to me, they are both champions already.. okay.. guess i've gotta take a break here.. going for my lunch.. chaoz~

phew.. just came back from the INCOVAR camp.. tiring but i strongly felt it was worth it. It's being so fun over there that i'm starting to look forward for the 26th camp to be held, haha... To all the precious friends i meet over there, i love you all much! it was so fun to spend this 4days time with you all and i really really enjoy it to the end.I've learnt lot from this camp and understand where my power and weakness stands. Hope that in future i could improve myselve more to become a stronger person with all the good qualities of mine being exploited.. thanks again to INCOVAR.. you all did an extremely wonderful work by bringing out this camp. It's being a pleasure of a lifetime for me to bump into you all. Love you all much~ For my other friends that do have interest in this INCOVAR activities please do tell me so i could invite you all to join me when there's activities in future..